The most promising summer ever

I have been ranting that I need, must even, a vacation for the longest time. And now, I think I am finally getting my much-needed time off.

There is that Holy Week getaway with high school pals Arcie, with her boyfriend Irving, and Ronsie to Zambales. We are planning to island hop from Potipot to Capones Island. Then there is also the plan of heading to Subic for.. dinner. LOL. We're practically going "backpacking" in Zambales!

And since I heard Capones Island is sooo beautiful, I egged one of my work friends, Maika, to camp there (tents and all!) on the weekend following Holy Week. (Yes! Just mere 5 days after my first one.) We even invited her Korean student, Free, to come with us. I'm excited for this trip because I *never* camped before. If I ever did, it was during my Girl Scout days and we just stayed in classrooms. Boring. So I'm really looking forward to this oh-so-close-with-Mother-Nature trip.

I can almost smell the ocean!

Maika is also making me agree to a trip to Thailand or Indonesia. Maika is such a fan of temples and mountains (she is a mountaineer afterall..) and everything and anything old and "environmental" so we are just limiting our choice of countries with either temples or mountains. Domestic airline tickets are unbelievably cheap nowadays! So Maika (again) is inviting me to a trip to Bohol. Kumusta naman, panay ang bakasyon!

Wait! There's more!

Since it will be one of my closest friend's birthday at the end of the month and her mother is somewhere in Australia by that time, we are also planning of celebrating it with an out-of-town trip.

All these in between my review for the NCLEX and Local Board retake. But really, ever since I entered college and even when I graduated, I didn't have any time for a respectable vacation! Plus I have been through too much stress for the past few days. I need a break.

Hopefully, all these will push through. Oh God I'm so excited!

Product of a Migraine attack

I came home tonight in a depressed mood with a throbbing migraine. I wanted to cry and shout and laugh and slit my wrist all at the same time but I was in such pain to do any of it. Instead, I opened my computer and checked my email; a thing any i-can't-live-without-internet person with physical limitations would do, defying the laws of Abraham Maslow.

And there it was. A chain e-mail from you. Even though I loath chain e-mails, I made exceptions, since this one was from you. I excitedly read it. It turned out to be one of these. It wasn't funny. But I laughed. People should not reply to chain mails. But I did. And then I thought to myself 'Shit'. Because I'm supposed to be over you.

But I'm not.

Green revolution

Today, I went to UP Baguio to attend my first Greenpeace Orientation. My friend, Maika, who is the incumbent president of UPBM (UP Baguio Mountaineers) invited me since they were the once who organized the event.

I signed up to be a volunteer for Greenpeace and we (well, technically, they) were planning to set up the first ever Greenpeace South East Asia local chapter group (which, by the way, according to the speaker will be historical since it will be the first in this region) here in Baguio City. How cool is that?

I learned a lot in the orientation and still learning more through reading the contents of their website. I encourage everybody to join Greenpeace and be advocates of the environment and Earth in general. Because we need to take care of our home not only for us but also for the generations to come so they may experience breathing clean air, swimming in unpolluted waters and living in an environmentally-safe world.

Nostalgia

The Sun Sets Up North
*a post from the now defunct Technicolored Sunset (a blog I used to own)

i am a brat. i have always found ways to getting what i want. i have always succeeded in conquering the feelings of others in my “guilt-free” way and had always found myself content with the way things are at the end of the line. i could have all the things i want, but not him. never him.

and for that, i have decided to stop wishing upon all hopes that the dieties would bestow a wondrous gift that is mutual love. i shall convince myself it was not love, that i am not in-love. it was a sweet but insignificant meeting, that i only romanticized as a grand love affair in my mind. i would stop staring at him to encode his entirety in my brain until the time i would see him again. i would cease to look up in the sky to wait for a shooting star so that i could wish (and ask in pity) if the man of my dreams can get me out of my solitute.

i would stop thinking of his precious smile– the kind of smile that comes not from watching comedy shows but the kind that comes from finishing a work on his computer and watching people fall for practical jokes. i would accept that there is a person out there whom he loves and loves him in return, and that i could never level with her. i will start to convince myself that it was not injustice not to have him although i loved him so much for so long.

yes. i shall forget him. i shall forget the make-belief world i have created as a sanctuary for the love story that will never happen. i shall forget that when he enters the room, my eyes light up like an incandescent bulb. i shall forget how my heart races everytime he comes out of the curb unexpectedly. i shall forget how tounge-tied i get everytime he speaks to me.

i shall forget how much i adored him for no reason at all. i shall forget the happiness i feel everytime he smiles at me or when i hear his voice over the next room. i shall stop waiting, not because i am tired but because i know the answer already– i was just too blind or maybe to proud to recognize it. and most of all, i shall forget that i ever met him.

the last glance, i have already let the wind take it away and blow it somewhere else. the sun has set and in the darkness, i am in my solitude again. however, i am not sad. it was said that although angels weep, they learn how to smile too. and i have, even without his memory.

Chopseuy

I'm officially jobless.

I resigned from work about four days ago and when I handed my resignation letter (which, by the way, is very, very emotional haha!) to my boss, he jokingly said "I decline". But, as I have said in my letter, "I have to realize my personal and professional dream by pursuing my nursing career". Eklat. Which basically means I am going to review for my NCLEX-RN exam. AND THIS STUPID RETAKE SHIT.

I miss working, though. I went to my workplace today and it kinda felt nostalgic. Wow naman, diba. As if I left eons ago. =p Anyway, it was really quiet and one teacher said it is such because, me, the "maingay" one, is already gone. And the decline in the number of students strongly warrant this observation. LOL. I hung around the kids for a couple of minutes and they kept on asking when am I going back to teach. I reluctantly answered "I don't know" although I already know the answer. I am already keen on getting a job as a nurse, for real this time. Because I feel like I bummed around for so long. Although technically, I had a job. But I seriously need to find a job as a nurse.

So for now, while waiting for the NCLEX-RN review to start, I am burning my time by sleeping (I think I'm getting too much of this) and watching sappy movies (read: Korean movies). It's all good. *grin*


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There's a mouse in my room. Well, hoping it is only MOUSE not MICE. I'm scared as shit so I have to sleep with the lights on. I rationalize this being there is light and the mouse will prefer to stay in dark places away from my eyes. Which eventually will give me peace while sleeping (read: Images of the mouse running on my bed, or, worse, walking on my body! eeeeeek!).

Suddenly remembered one of my friend's friend (who also happen to have a mouse problem in her room) saying that she *thinks* the mouse is too intelligent because it walks around the trap she made! *gasp!* And, there's more! The mouse is able to get the food in the center of the trap... without falling for the trap! *double gasp!*

If that happens to me, I seriously will need counselling for the rest of my life.


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Panagbenga 2007 is *finally* over and all the people of Baguio City can go back to their normal, pre-Panagbenga lives.

Didn't go to any concert or street party though. Although Hale, one of my all-time favorite bands (obviously because of Champ mwahehehe) had a free concert. I think I'm getting too old for that (God, what am I sayin? I'm only 20!). Plus, I don't want any part of my body rubbing against *dirty* people. Hahaha!

Comment: Session Road in Bloom (where Session Road actually closes for vehicle traffic) was far organized this year. Yey for the people in charge of the whole Panagbenga 2007.


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My blog is so deserted. I changed blogs so very often that I lost track of readers. Anyway, I'll advertise my blog once again to the madlang people na lang. For your info, whoever you are reading this, I used to own http://technicoloredsunset.blogspot.com but I took it off the internet because... well... uhmmm... it's too personal. Haha! Then wordpress didn't work out for me and I wasn't able to direct everyone to my new URL.

So please, sweetie, do me a favor... let others know about my blog. Because I'm an attention-whore. Haha! ^_^ And link me!

Kisses. (^.^)